Blog this time . . Terlalu lama di fikirkan dulu . . Setelah lama memikirkan . . Banyak soalan datang dan di pertimbang kan . . Tapi bila kebaikan dari keburukan lebih menyebelahi , okay untok di proceed . . Untok di jadi terus ke cerita sebenaq , Syiqin say all these atas akal Sang legal adult yang almost cukup haul untok sudah boleh membicarakan . . Untok keterbukaan , Syiqin nada masalah untok ber kongsi yang Syiqin sekarang hmmmm yes. 15 Ramadhan nanti menjadi exactly , satu tahun free dari any relationship . . But okay . . Alhamdulillah . . Bisa menerima semua nya sudah tertulis . . Kalau untok di bawa ke hati lah . .
Untok confession dari suara hati Syiqin , benda ter stop in between atu I can say that semua nya Syiqin yang menjadi kan nya in a mess . . Banyak benda yang hard to be explained . . But Alhamdulillah , we settled everything down with a thank you and all . . Not with a swear or point finger or anything else . . And yes , it was me who screwed everything up and I was also the one who trying so hard to get things back but I was in real too late . .
Bila ada masa untok memberitau apa sebenar nya jadi , mungkin terlalu basi dan sudah nada kegunaan nya . . Benda inda dapat di undur kan untok penjelasan dan sebagai nya . . Keadaan sebenar Syiqin semasa sebelom benda jadi atu was Syiqin inda dapat manage time between the family . . Him . . Assignment . . And all . . I admit that . . So well . . As far as I remember semasa atu packed . . The family , Dad side atu busy dengan keadaan . . Nenek in Singa . . Late Bapa not well . . And I think for the early months atu I still dapat manage . . And sampai this one time , everything seem clashed berabis. And I was out of mind kali sampai this one text I sent was , I told him that I want semua nya end till there and I hanged him quite batah jua . . Dan semasa atu jua , school was in real tight. But at the same time , the heart was captured by someone else jua masa atu. I think it was last for about 3 months. Were just being close . . I think , I don't have to even tell exactly who was him . . All to be known was it was all because of my heart that fickle too way confuse. Benda jadi in just a flick . . And entah . .
But things are way better now kali . . Mudah mudahan . . The last time I get contacted with the other side was he is meeting someone new . . And nothing could change things . . So far . . But , I know that you do know jua that I always keep you in the prayers and all . . Deep inside me pray well that mudahan bisa menerus kan semua nya dengan lebih matang dan mudah mudahan dapat sedikit pengalaman untok di guna pakai di masa akan datang . .
Bila Syiqin pernah jadi yang di nama kan 1st love atu adalah harga yang paling mahal untok Syiqin bayar selama masa bersama . . Yes. We both are students who didn't find love as a priority in life . . Thank you for being a best boyfriend for the period of time we were together . . And thank you for showing me things that I never thought of . . You been in this heart. And I been in yours. We are good . . Thank you. You ll probably be the only Sheikhe in my life . . Thank you for the time spent. I hope things are way too clear to you by now . .
. . Some people are going to leave , but that's not the end of your story. That's the end of their part in your story . .
It's life after all . . Sheikh Mahmud Mahyuddin , thank you for once being part of my life . . To be listed in my 2012 diary atu . . You be safe. I know you ll read this post . . Send my regards to Ashraf and your mama . . Till there. Take care.
And that's a wrap of our story. It's not the story of all . . Hints that you just need to think of more . . If you feel like to . . Not rambling. Hmmmm. Kali jua . .
Till there. As Salam. Nfa19.
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