Miss Bapa. Al-Fatihah . .

Selepas Bapa left . . Syiqin admit Syiqin seems selalu longing . . Syiqin always talk to self that semua takdir Allah . . Kuasa apa dapat mengubah . . ? Syiqin tengah belajar untok mengadapt keadaan . .

Pa , I miss you everyday . . May you rest in peace and be placed among the loved ones . . The only things that I could give you adalah Al-Fatihah , Yaasiin and Tahlil sekarang Pa . . Syiqin inda dapat back to the oldies . . If only I can Pa . . I ll look after you more often . . Walaupun Bapa cakap I can't lift you pasal Bapa barat. Pa . . Sorry but I miss you . . Wait for us Pa . . We ll reunited somewhere There . . Have a good rest Pa . . You re now safe beside the Creator . . 

The angels might be fighting to look after you Pa . . You re our Hero. You have a beautiful wife. You have a good look. So handsome. You have a big family. You have us kan Pa . . I know you re one of the happy grandfathers to have grandchildrens . . You have us , who love you for who you re . . Al-Fatihah . . 

March 23. The day that I wish I was in a day dreaming . . One of the toughest day ever . . Bapa was in a deep sleep and ll never wake up again for the rest of time . . I wasn't told and I was mad to see someone wearing topi haji outside the house and I was mad to see there was chairs where about to be setting up by the boys . . I was mad that everyone is silent when I enter the house. Way of approaching Bapa's room I could listened people reciting and why . . ? I was asking deep down the heart . . As my foot step on the door and saw them sitting with Yaassiin simply shoot my heart and it explodes the min.com after I saw Bapa sleep under his kain sarong. I wasn't seeing what I was seeing . . The heart bursted to gazillions pieces. What should I do . . ? What games were played ? Syiqin adalah mungkin one of yang tersedih banar barangkali semasa atu . . 

Kehilangan is very painful bila diertikan . . Dan kekecewaan bila ada yang masih mampu tersenyum melihat kesedihan di atas orang lain . . 

Mudah mudahan di Rahmati Allah . . Mungkin bisa alpa dengan keadaan , tapi nada kemudahan untok melupakan gurisan yang di buat di setiap hati manusia yang lain nya . . Bisa saja memaafkan sering kali ter fikiran . . Lumrah kehidopan bagi sesetengah kelompok manusia di mana saja asal usul . . Sesinless mana di awal nya manusia lain dan cuma dengan SATU kesilapan bisa memadam kesinless atu . . Sebab lumrah manusia untok mudah mentafsir . . Susah merungkai dan senang menyebar . . Periuk nasi. Kain sarong. Keturunan dan isi perot sesebuah keluarga harus lah pada awal nya di baik kan sebaik mungkin . . Di fasa awal sekali . . Cermin besar dan penapis besar adalah sangat di perlu kan bukan . . Jangan mudah menyentuh hal yang lain bila kesendirian melebihi had laju di jalan besar . . Fahami keadaan . . Kalau ada keperluan untok mendapat kan kepastian waima sampai lebih dari kelobang cacing , sila kan . . Jangan cuma datang membawa satu kepastian . . Bersedia untok menghujahkan kepastian tadi dan sebelom menjadi penolong negara sebagai penyampai berita keseluruhannya . . Fikirkan sejenak , bukan kan Pencipta dengan janjiNya pasti . . ? 

Renungan untok sanubari yang sudah melentur , sarat menunggu goyang dan runtuh . . Bercermin lah . . Kamus belom pernah menistilah kan erti ter lambat . . Dan penyesalan mungkin bukan jalan ahir . . Wallah Wa'lam . . 

NFA19. Assalamualaikum . .