This is it

Heyohh. shall we start w whats happening on my side in this begginning of year ? 2011. it has been an awesome first two months fo me . . there re sad. happy. there s tears of happiness. sadness. its all fair.

january , almost a month m feelin gd. i ve moved to new house . . an apartment actually. and it was the awesomest thing ever. reunited w the whole family ohh. u cant deny the feeling that you feel. its awesomeee. be around w the people u love is just too way awesomeee. having a gd bond. ahhhhh. awesomeeeeee I say. followed by meeting w the person you love and care the most . . given an awesome necklace from the person u care the mosr is an awesomeee feelin . .

february. a bit quackaakaakaa fo me cos 1st feb is my day where m officially turned 17. mature 17 it was. jieehooha! lets talk abt what happening on the 5th february . . started from 5 feb m facing a rough and misery days. been in mute mode fo almost 3 days. . it was the day when i started to know what sad. mad. frustrated and sort of truly means. frankly speaking it was the day where m facing the most miserable days. world seems stopped and looks so dull. 5 february jua the day i was awaken bt the surrounding and were officially known as the LOSER! the day where i know that im the most useless person on earth . . the day i know im not somebody who can be proud of . . the day when i know my o level result and the most pathetic est thing was i only got 1 o. how sad is that ? if u were me will you see a bright future fo urself lagii ? will ya ? i just dont know what to do. i feel its the end of my life. . m giving up in facing this life. i cant take it no more. thats it ! but Alhamdulillah . . m glad that everyone faham my situation. . parents . . i noe they must be very frustrated w me even they din show any reaction . . friends re there too w me . .the person i care the most also there w me. . there w all the moral support as it is the only thing what is needed on that time. . cousins re there too . .

this is what i wrote just after the result had released ' 5 february 2011 , hari paling malang dalam hidup aku. hari aku terima berita aku cuma dapat satu o. i was expecting more. 2 or 3 or 6 indeed. frustrated. down. inda pecaya. benggang. give up. pasrah ofcos. redha. . sinar nya sudah hilang. cahaya sdh tidak secerah matahari dulu. skarang aku dlm kgelapan. dunia aku smakin suram. hilang ksemua kgembiraan. sekarang aku baru hendak bertanya siapa aku ? apa guna aku hidop ? parents comfirm frust they din show bt i noe they re. aku kan minta maaf pun aku nda tau mcm mana. doa ibu. aku frust knapa ibu aku doa kan aku mcm atu dulu. aku inda salah kan kalau ibu aku ada firasat aku akan fail tp atleast aku cuba setengah mati untk lulus tetap jua gagal. aku rasa aku lah anak inda beguna. maaf lah aku gagal x ni. aku sdah nada semangat untok hidop. hati aku frust tahap cibai. aku lost. hidup rasa kucar kacir skarang. aku bukan Norfatinasyiqin. aku ANAK NADA GUNA NYA DI DUNIA ANI. sorry semua. kalau Tuhan cabut nyawa aku sekalipun aku redha. aku redha pergi tinggal kan semua dari parents aku malu ada anak mcm aku. aku minta maaf bnr bnr. aku kan menyesal nada guna nya. dlm hidop aku inda pernah mengaku aku menyesal. aku LOST. ya Allah tolong rahmati aku. tolong aku . . beri aku peluang kedua. aku mahu bukti kan aku akan lulus dgn cemerlang kali kedua ani. tolong ya Allah. aku mohon '

my family . . friends . . and all the person i love . . i wana prove to them that i wont hurt their heart no more . . m not gonna promise anything but i ll prove. . this is one of my promises. i ll stand on my own feet. i ll study smart and more harder . . m doing all this Lillahi Taala . . i ll get what i want . . one day i will . . i will be the one i wana be . . i ll own what i ve been dreaming . . all w Allah wills. . i ll save this post now . . andddddddddd im done!!! ciaaaoo !