heiii . . macam biasa i woke up at 10 plus then strika baju kan arah orang zikir then mandi besiap apa around 12 plus jalan datang arah rumah nini dulu kan sebalah sebalah saja rumah itu ini baru tah kesablah aga sana ada ramai jua sikit orang lah me and kaka diri jauh jauh saja sambut tetamu plg tpi inda lah jua inda comfortable sikit bah inda berapa biasa . . i only makan nasi and lamb the one yang nini masak. nyaman derr . . nini masak terbaek wok! :) selepas habis acara ke arah nini saja main w Azib =D
around 7 plus ke lawat nini side babah . . 2 hari sudah inda lawat . . tapi esok discharge yeayy!! :)) tadi awal lawat nini nini sleep tp babu nini bising sikit terbangun tia . . balik dari lawat ke makan late din sebab lapar ah . . makan nasi ayam dengan minom barley panas . .
balik rumah tukar baju apa then iron sekolah baju apa lepas atu cuci muka apa revise jap and now blogging soon zzZZ ~ =p itu ini dulu apa karang baru tah sleep tu . .
alrite . . i leave you till here . . enjoy baca inda payah ke jiwa . . haha. take care , Assalamualaikum.
lots of love , SA.
Sunday, 27 March 2011
facebook. =.='
heloo. facebook. hmm. so many people ask why on earth do i deactivated my account . . there must be a reason jua kan . . one of the reasons is ' masa depan ' my future is in my own hands jua . . facebook. inda kemana jua . . i admit ia melalai kan. yes. it depends to siapa penguna nya like me. 247 almost facebook befo. but now with what had terjadi i take it as my lesson. masa mematang kan kitani . . doa saja this time jadi as what i ve plan . . and di berkati. InsyaAllah. . mistake dulu dont make it happens fo the 2nd time kalau dapat . . apa yang dapat di tinggal kan tinggal kan demi future sendiri . . inda rugi . .
salah satu reasons lagi is menjauh kan dari sesuatu yang inda berapa di sukai. masalah. dalam menangani masalah satu perkara yang perlu di jaga is perasaan. perasaan orang and 1st kenapa inda perasaan sendiri dulu di jaga. and that what exactly m doing now. menjaga perasaan sendiri. diri sendiri sudah inda suka kenapa kan di paksa ? yes. i admit m avoiding dari that problem. yes. u re rite jua every masalah we ve to solve. but on my pendapat inda semua masalah will ve the solution. like my problem ani its not really masalah lah its just satu rasa yang hmm. im nt suppose to bagi apa exactly i feel abt it. bila hati sudah sakit everytime ada. knapa menyakit kan hati sendiri rite ? bila dapat di get rid . . kenapa inda di hindari saja . . i wont let myself sakit and i wont waste my time arah that kind of thing. not worth it pun . . so i ve my own reason why m doing this and that . . respect pendirian every individual atu . . inda payah tanya more further . .
take things easy saja . . ada some said ' life is what makes you die ' inda lah . . terpulang . . hidup is like satu percaturan. depence on siapa pemain nya kalau pemain nya memain kan satu percaturan yang hebat maka baik lah percaturan hidup nya . . siapa yang inda. sebalik nya . . as simple as that . . as easy as alif ba ta . .
jauhi dari iri hati . . hasat dengki . . doa agar hati diterangi . . kalau hati dull iblis senang menghasot so minta di terangi hati . . di lapangkan fikiran dan dada . . bah i leave you til here dulu . . more update to come . . kalau inda faham buat buat faham saja . . aite . .
m going to sleep. its 12.03 am sudah . . take care. Assalamualaikum.
lots of love , SA.
Doa kekuatan iman :
Ya Allah , berilah kepadaku iman yang kuat yang tidak akan murtad dan keyakinan yang tidak lagi dipengaruhi kekufuran dan berikanlah kepadaku rahmat yang dengannya aku mencapai kemuliaanMU di dunia dan akhirat . .
salah satu reasons lagi is menjauh kan dari sesuatu yang inda berapa di sukai. masalah. dalam menangani masalah satu perkara yang perlu di jaga is perasaan. perasaan orang and 1st kenapa inda perasaan sendiri dulu di jaga. and that what exactly m doing now. menjaga perasaan sendiri. diri sendiri sudah inda suka kenapa kan di paksa ? yes. i admit m avoiding dari that problem. yes. u re rite jua every masalah we ve to solve. but on my pendapat inda semua masalah will ve the solution. like my problem ani its not really masalah lah its just satu rasa yang hmm. im nt suppose to bagi apa exactly i feel abt it. bila hati sudah sakit everytime ada. knapa menyakit kan hati sendiri rite ? bila dapat di get rid . . kenapa inda di hindari saja . . i wont let myself sakit and i wont waste my time arah that kind of thing. not worth it pun . . so i ve my own reason why m doing this and that . . respect pendirian every individual atu . . inda payah tanya more further . .
take things easy saja . . ada some said ' life is what makes you die ' inda lah . . terpulang . . hidup is like satu percaturan. depence on siapa pemain nya kalau pemain nya memain kan satu percaturan yang hebat maka baik lah percaturan hidup nya . . siapa yang inda. sebalik nya . . as simple as that . . as easy as alif ba ta . .
jauhi dari iri hati . . hasat dengki . . doa agar hati diterangi . . kalau hati dull iblis senang menghasot so minta di terangi hati . . di lapangkan fikiran dan dada . . bah i leave you til here dulu . . more update to come . . kalau inda faham buat buat faham saja . . aite . .
m going to sleep. its 12.03 am sudah . . take care. Assalamualaikum.
lots of love , SA.
Doa kekuatan iman :
Ya Allah , berilah kepadaku iman yang kuat yang tidak akan murtad dan keyakinan yang tidak lagi dipengaruhi kekufuran dan berikanlah kepadaku rahmat yang dengannya aku mencapai kemuliaanMU di dunia dan akhirat . .
Saturday, 26 March 2011
this is a wrap fo today . .
march 26 , 2011. up - toilet - mop - buka pintu beranda - cook - eat - sit rest jap - cerita dengan kaka - revise sikit - 5 plus sleep til 6.15pm - up - shower - tv - earth hour - late dinner - twitter - blogging - soon sleep.
everyday kan sama apa yang di buat apa atu . . kalau nada bejalan jalan sama tia stiap hari . . esok sepatut ke laut w the cousin tapi side babu ada panggil doa zikir apa . . so inda pigi dengan side babah lah tu . . kalau pigi siuk tu . . esok awal bangun sikit ke Tanjung Nangka petang arah cousin zikir atu . .
bah i leave you til here . . take care , Assalamualaikum. see you when i see ya . .
lots of love , SA.
everyday kan sama apa yang di buat apa atu . . kalau nada bejalan jalan sama tia stiap hari . . esok sepatut ke laut w the cousin tapi side babu ada panggil doa zikir apa . . so inda pigi dengan side babah lah tu . . kalau pigi siuk tu . . esok awal bangun sikit ke Tanjung Nangka petang arah cousin zikir atu . .
bah i leave you til here . . take care , Assalamualaikum. see you when i see ya . .
lots of love , SA.
i found this arah notes handphone . .
' bila rindu aku. pejam mata. lihat aku pasti ada. '
' bila kau nangis sebab rindu aku. kau buat tangan kanan ke bahu kiri. and tangan kiri ke bahu kanan. now teruskan nangis. pejam mata. sekarang aku dakap kau penoh erat '
' aku rindu kau sama seperti manusia bercakap dengan bulan mahupun bintang '
' aku rindu kau seumpama seorang berlari ke hujung dunia ( tiada sudah nya ) '
' bila kau nangis sebab rindu aku. kau buat tangan kanan ke bahu kiri. and tangan kiri ke bahu kanan. now teruskan nangis. pejam mata. sekarang aku dakap kau penoh erat '
' aku rindu kau sama seperti manusia bercakap dengan bulan mahupun bintang '
' aku rindu kau seumpama seorang berlari ke hujung dunia ( tiada sudah nya ) '
Friday, 25 March 2011
it runs straight to the vein . .
If one day you feel like
crying. CALL ME I don't promise you
that I will make you laugh but I can cry
with you. If one day you want to run away ,
don't be afraid to call me. I don't
promise to ask you to stop but I can run
with you. If one day you don't want to
listen ANY BODY! call me and.... I
promise to be very quiet but.... If one
day you call & there is no answer..
come fast to see me... perhaps I need you . .
crying. CALL ME I don't promise you
that I will make you laugh but I can cry
with you. If one day you want to run away ,
don't be afraid to call me. I don't
promise to ask you to stop but I can run
with you. If one day you don't want to
listen ANY BODY! call me and.... I
promise to be very quiet but.... If one
day you call & there is no answer..
come fast to see me... perhaps I need you . .
Monday, 21 March 2011
al kisah tadi malam
hei . . nah . . i got time i got time . . haha. ok. i ll start arah petang lah aite . . petang tadi befo ke traders cafe makan w the family packing baju dulu untuk esok pigi kk ani . . lepas packing apa makan apa baru lawat nini . . sian eh nini mikin meracau ah . . knapa kan tu ia ? worry ku. betangisan bah kami tadi mliat nini mcm atu atu . . di bawa membaca baca mau plg nini . . baca doa selamat jua tadi . . mudahan tah berkat doa semua orang semua nya ok ok saja . . we just pray nini in gd condition just like befo . . Amin. rawan hati mliat nini mcm atu atu . . sian.
balik dari lawat nini ke rimba kena hantar . . hati ani kan mau pigi jua inda jua pigi jua inda jua entah mcm mna kah ni esok . usul nya pigi plg ni . . entah eh inda tetap iman ani . . ani blogging th plg ah karang lagi awal bangun . . bah i leave you till here . . see you when i see ya. tc. Assalamualaikum.
balik dari lawat nini ke rimba kena hantar . . hati ani kan mau pigi jua inda jua pigi jua inda jua entah mcm mna kah ni esok . usul nya pigi plg ni . . entah eh inda tetap iman ani . . ani blogging th plg ah karang lagi awal bangun . . bah i leave you till here . . see you when i see ya. tc. Assalamualaikum.
Saturday, 12 March 2011
This is it
Heyohh. shall we start w whats happening on my side in this begginning of year ? 2011. it has been an awesome first two months fo me . . there re sad. happy. there s tears of happiness. sadness. its all fair.
january , almost a month m feelin gd. i ve moved to new house . . an apartment actually. and it was the awesomest thing ever. reunited w the whole family ohh. u cant deny the feeling that you feel. its awesomeee. be around w the people u love is just too way awesomeee. having a gd bond. ahhhhh. awesomeeeeee I say. followed by meeting w the person you love and care the most . . given an awesome necklace from the person u care the mosr is an awesomeee feelin . .
february. a bit quackaakaakaa fo me cos 1st feb is my day where m officially turned 17. mature 17 it was. jieehooha! lets talk abt what happening on the 5th february . . started from 5 feb m facing a rough and misery days. been in mute mode fo almost 3 days. . it was the day when i started to know what sad. mad. frustrated and sort of truly means. frankly speaking it was the day where m facing the most miserable days. world seems stopped and looks so dull. 5 february jua the day i was awaken bt the surrounding and were officially known as the LOSER! the day where i know that im the most useless person on earth . . the day i know im not somebody who can be proud of . . the day when i know my o level result and the most pathetic est thing was i only got 1 o. how sad is that ? if u were me will you see a bright future fo urself lagii ? will ya ? i just dont know what to do. i feel its the end of my life. . m giving up in facing this life. i cant take it no more. thats it ! but Alhamdulillah . . m glad that everyone faham my situation. . parents . . i noe they must be very frustrated w me even they din show any reaction . . friends re there too w me . .the person i care the most also there w me. . there w all the moral support as it is the only thing what is needed on that time. . cousins re there too . .
this is what i wrote just after the result had released ' 5 february 2011 , hari paling malang dalam hidup aku. hari aku terima berita aku cuma dapat satu o. i was expecting more. 2 or 3 or 6 indeed. frustrated. down. inda pecaya. benggang. give up. pasrah ofcos. redha. . sinar nya sudah hilang. cahaya sdh tidak secerah matahari dulu. skarang aku dlm kgelapan. dunia aku smakin suram. hilang ksemua kgembiraan. sekarang aku baru hendak bertanya siapa aku ? apa guna aku hidop ? parents comfirm frust they din show bt i noe they re. aku kan minta maaf pun aku nda tau mcm mana. doa ibu. aku frust knapa ibu aku doa kan aku mcm atu dulu. aku inda salah kan kalau ibu aku ada firasat aku akan fail tp atleast aku cuba setengah mati untk lulus tetap jua gagal. aku rasa aku lah anak inda beguna. maaf lah aku gagal x ni. aku sdah nada semangat untok hidop. hati aku frust tahap cibai. aku lost. hidup rasa kucar kacir skarang. aku bukan Norfatinasyiqin. aku ANAK NADA GUNA NYA DI DUNIA ANI. sorry semua. kalau Tuhan cabut nyawa aku sekalipun aku redha. aku redha pergi tinggal kan semua dari parents aku malu ada anak mcm aku. aku minta maaf bnr bnr. aku kan menyesal nada guna nya. dlm hidop aku inda pernah mengaku aku menyesal. aku LOST. ya Allah tolong rahmati aku. tolong aku . . beri aku peluang kedua. aku mahu bukti kan aku akan lulus dgn cemerlang kali kedua ani. tolong ya Allah. aku mohon '
my family . . friends . . and all the person i love . . i wana prove to them that i wont hurt their heart no more . . m not gonna promise anything but i ll prove. . this is one of my promises. i ll stand on my own feet. i ll study smart and more harder . . m doing all this Lillahi Taala . . i ll get what i want . . one day i will . . i will be the one i wana be . . i ll own what i ve been dreaming . . all w Allah wills. . i ll save this post now . . andddddddddd im done!!! ciaaaoo !
january , almost a month m feelin gd. i ve moved to new house . . an apartment actually. and it was the awesomest thing ever. reunited w the whole family ohh. u cant deny the feeling that you feel. its awesomeee. be around w the people u love is just too way awesomeee. having a gd bond. ahhhhh. awesomeeeeee I say. followed by meeting w the person you love and care the most . . given an awesome necklace from the person u care the mosr is an awesomeee feelin . .
february. a bit quackaakaakaa fo me cos 1st feb is my day where m officially turned 17. mature 17 it was. jieehooha! lets talk abt what happening on the 5th february . . started from 5 feb m facing a rough and misery days. been in mute mode fo almost 3 days. . it was the day when i started to know what sad. mad. frustrated and sort of truly means. frankly speaking it was the day where m facing the most miserable days. world seems stopped and looks so dull. 5 february jua the day i was awaken bt the surrounding and were officially known as the LOSER! the day where i know that im the most useless person on earth . . the day i know im not somebody who can be proud of . . the day when i know my o level result and the most pathetic est thing was i only got 1 o. how sad is that ? if u were me will you see a bright future fo urself lagii ? will ya ? i just dont know what to do. i feel its the end of my life. . m giving up in facing this life. i cant take it no more. thats it ! but Alhamdulillah . . m glad that everyone faham my situation. . parents . . i noe they must be very frustrated w me even they din show any reaction . . friends re there too w me . .the person i care the most also there w me. . there w all the moral support as it is the only thing what is needed on that time. . cousins re there too . .
this is what i wrote just after the result had released ' 5 february 2011 , hari paling malang dalam hidup aku. hari aku terima berita aku cuma dapat satu o. i was expecting more. 2 or 3 or 6 indeed. frustrated. down. inda pecaya. benggang. give up. pasrah ofcos. redha. . sinar nya sudah hilang. cahaya sdh tidak secerah matahari dulu. skarang aku dlm kgelapan. dunia aku smakin suram. hilang ksemua kgembiraan. sekarang aku baru hendak bertanya siapa aku ? apa guna aku hidop ? parents comfirm frust they din show bt i noe they re. aku kan minta maaf pun aku nda tau mcm mana. doa ibu. aku frust knapa ibu aku doa kan aku mcm atu dulu. aku inda salah kan kalau ibu aku ada firasat aku akan fail tp atleast aku cuba setengah mati untk lulus tetap jua gagal. aku rasa aku lah anak inda beguna. maaf lah aku gagal x ni. aku sdah nada semangat untok hidop. hati aku frust tahap cibai. aku lost. hidup rasa kucar kacir skarang. aku bukan Norfatinasyiqin. aku ANAK NADA GUNA NYA DI DUNIA ANI. sorry semua. kalau Tuhan cabut nyawa aku sekalipun aku redha. aku redha pergi tinggal kan semua dari parents aku malu ada anak mcm aku. aku minta maaf bnr bnr. aku kan menyesal nada guna nya. dlm hidop aku inda pernah mengaku aku menyesal. aku LOST. ya Allah tolong rahmati aku. tolong aku . . beri aku peluang kedua. aku mahu bukti kan aku akan lulus dgn cemerlang kali kedua ani. tolong ya Allah. aku mohon '
my family . . friends . . and all the person i love . . i wana prove to them that i wont hurt their heart no more . . m not gonna promise anything but i ll prove. . this is one of my promises. i ll stand on my own feet. i ll study smart and more harder . . m doing all this Lillahi Taala . . i ll get what i want . . one day i will . . i will be the one i wana be . . i ll own what i ve been dreaming . . all w Allah wills. . i ll save this post now . . andddddddddd im done!!! ciaaaoo !
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