Sucks hood

Yo engender em at the 1st place

But now left neglected like no other space te be placed

Yo practice an ignorancess te this soul

But it ll still enshine yo after all

Yo haf em all as yo priority

But here was hang as dregs of insanity

Yo used te say that 3 sucks words

But dy' happen te mean em states

Pain.

I end everything with a tear in the eyes

Yet yo ignore em with a smile

I speak my mind every now and then

Yet yo left with no end

I put this care far from retreat

Yet yo realise with no thread

I suck up on this big time bane

Yet yo come and go like vane

I say em

In the midst of all these troubles. 

I wish te touch yor heart

But arent yo going to feel hurt ?

I wish te keep yo in this arm

But ll yo stay any longer in this warm ? 

I wish te show yo whats in the eyes

But I hardly see the zealous

I wish yo te kno this yearning

But yo re too way far from the meaning

I wish te turn back time with enthusiastic

But been wondering if things could be authentic

I wish te banish this feeling with delight

But cant seem te even see the guts of light

Jadi lah denial sepanjang hidop. Word.

Manusia. 

Saat ter basah pipi

Mereka akan sial menyepi

Manusia.

Saat cacamarba singgah di diri

Mereka biarkan  menghadapi sendiri

Manusia.

Saat mengenali perkataan janji

Mereka sendiri mungkiri

Dan jugak nama Manusia :

Manusia.

Saat terjumpa gelak

Mereka menjadi tawa kelak

Manusia.

Saat tawa ini di awangan

Mereka disekeliling berterbangan

Manusia.

Saat tawa ini di dengar dunia

Mereka jahanam orang yang paling ber-ia ia

Sekarang. Manusia , di mana keadilan ? Jangan salah kan dunia nada berkeadilan. Sekarang juga , tunjuk manusia yang di depan cermin itu dan salah kan mereka!

Adha

Hello. Salam Adha semua orang. Here's wishing a blessed and happy Eid Adha. May semua nya ll be blessed by the Almighty Allah. Amin Amin Amin.

Menyambut nada kemeriahan , cuma ala ala kadar tetapi  rasa happy sebab ramai orang ada. Small gathering with the HAH. Alhamdulillah. Rasa bertambah udara. Mungkin hilang sedikit erti hidop kalau diorang nada kali. Kalau mendalami erti keluarga , tau semuanya. Concur semuanya. Kekuataan untok teros hidop , kekuatan untok berada di menara. Kekuatan untok semua nya. Alhamdulillah. Pencipta , bagi hadiah yang inda stop. Every year , semakin menghappy kan. Alhamdulillah. There can never be enough thank.

Kelmarin , hari yang mengembiraan. Hari korban. This year inda menumbang kan untok korban. Both side inda.  Daddi side , mellow. The grannys health inda meng izin. And keadaan perasaan uo and down. Semua nya cubaan Pencipta. InsyaAllah , di lend kan kesabaran yang di salute kan. Amin. Kalau bisa menjalani dengan tenang , satu kelebihan. Bukan kah Pencipta menguji dan inda stop , cuma te those yang ber Nur di hati. Besar and indah nikmat Pencipta. Nanti kan saja dengan faith. Have the faith. Ada soon Pencipta kan bagi. InsyaAllah :) Waima kan everyday ada bahan.

Nah. Test. Test from the Creator. Okay atu. Berkorban. Hidop perlu pengorbanan. Kalau apa apa berkaitan cinta mengapa bisa ? Bukan cinta saja perlu pengorbanan . . Hmmmmmm. Where to start ? Entah entah entah. Banyak perlu pengorbanan. Bila belom berkait atau mengena mengena dengan nyawa , masih in shape tu. Cuba tah kalau di bagi option untok macam Nabi Ibrahim , apa reaction nya atu ? Bah fikiq that sat . .

I'm leaving. Hmmmmm. About te. Nada mood. Bye.

Yesterday

Apa cer ? Sik ada apa apa. Cuma last friday till saturday che' takdoq kesempatan untok tidoq  kan chasing due date haa tu la manusia hampiq hampiq telangaq baghru la do' sibok nak elak bagai haihhh . . 

Teros che bayaq tidoq daghri balik skolah till tengah aghri esok nya. Adoiyaiii awat la jdi lagu tu dok manis langsung gadis sograng ni! Haihhh. 

Ya sudah lah ~ ha ha ha. What a gimmick start! Lol! Nada lah. Main main cuma nya. Why tho therious. Kelmarin bangun jam 11 mak kau terbaik dari ladang. Bangun ini itu ini teruih lunch. Housework menunggu. Did laundry earlier then itu ini itu ini service tong sampah and the area ku then mentouch up toilet dui ma apa jua bsar jamban di rumah ani lepas atu teros tah mandi then minom petang air teh dan cheese stick and kelupis nyaman sial kali nama nya tu ? Nyaman berabis. Sambil sambil atu  meliat tv SubhanAllah lama sudah jua inda meliat tv ani , dulu macam nyawa  bulih ku cakap tv ani. Bisai jua cerita nya how to survive dan bis diorang so that they call couple but noober. Lol. Mun di liat sedikit ganas jua but yang nya bisia nyaman atu is ada unsur unsur lucah. Nah , minat you cerita ku ani ? Bukan jua sex arrestment. Ha ha ha. Bah okay enough. Pesanan ringkas , dont get wet. La la la la la la la.

Bercerita jua teros pasal jiwa memberontak ani. I been in that phrase of life jua. I dont know kalau others ever happen jua pernah entah denial inda nya tu ha ha ha but payah kan di elaborate masalah memberontak ani its jiwa meningkat remaja kan and banyak benda jadi inda sekata with them and not their way nya I been there jua and throw up. Now!

Fikiq sat no

Sejenak. Syiqin seorang yang into kebendaan. My game is one of my toys. I call em toys. Cuma mendapati untok hadiah ke sendirian , but selalu nada kemanfaatan nya. Now masih menfikiran untok beli a new toys. Buttttttt kesian the old one :'s Nada masa untok really into it. My fingers inda seems tercipta untok jadi pemetik tapi menyayangi nya berabis. Bila ada kelapangan nanti di usaha kan. Fender. Amin.

Waiting te be free

Here. Lotsa things need te be done. Chasing date line. I suck again. All would be well , hopefully. 

Nada kegembiraan bila things re in a hell mess. Suck. Sorry but there re times I dont understand people. Yo mad. Kalau inda mau talk then just simply reply ' Dont text me. I ll be back to yo nanti or apa apa la la la ' lah. And lepas nya yo mad. Eff. 

Syiqin neglected when momi got problem =.=' Creator , can Syiqin have one sword because Syiqin want a magic sword to fight against momi obstacle and lend Syiqin a magic bleach that could vanish momi sadness. Syiqin love momi and everyone. 

Sad.

Another love

Hello world thats one of my programming yea mahn m talking about em te yo yes suck isnt no no dont tryna under motivated me with that concurness I laikem no doubt inside me laikem only when I know the code is tho I say true one no joke 

I laugh my finger off yes right now now yo do the lol-ing why daheck I start this post with IPG laugh again workloads brotha heavy shoulder yo want te lend yo shoul te lift em no yes camonnn no I kid yo 

M doing some draft hopefully em end soon like real soon hell soon and get heaven soon too yo get me ahh good thats my hommies I didnt sleep fe almost 24 hours and paid em back yesterday after school eff yo eyes was up at 12 daheel I suppose te up around 8 eff things was in a mess that I mad myself I almost kill myself ohh I kid yo know when the creator said Creator would only lend yo good things so when a bad things come fe a visit lets just think of the hidden reason why em happen and yo ll find that there would be a good one keep the faith the Creator love us and I love yo too no one alive with no love 

My life cool just the way it is eventho I suck up on em big times but theres actually a ray between em and rainbow after em woweee cool M living because my Angel is still breathing yeah thats fe sho I have no reason te stay down cus I have many loves and still living te make em proud 

Angel te my heart Hero who help my angel te bring me te this life Backbones of mine My partner in crime My Joker My cartoon My hopes The HAHs The HMTs The cousins The Hommies The friends My sayang and The other half are my loves. I have enough I wont ask fe more thank you Creator fe lending me em  M blessed thank you You are the Greatest 

I once said life is what makes me die that I ll let yo ponder yo be good and be safe till here bye

Real steel

Izhar , yes everything is and always be . . Anything to do with life would , I say . . Never question why almost semua benda relate te life now its time fe me te ask yo why it shudnt when yo re in ? Yeah mahn jangan denial eff yo ego . . Is everyone doing good ? Ofcrossss! 

Exceptional. Whats with it ? Ohh its life after all . . Fe real. Thats life , sometimes. Nahh yo wont get em nor it but itsokay I leave yo till there let yo brain works okay

Be an optimistic person. No harm. A quick one . . Yo and I and em once ask or ponder ist the day that makes it feels good ? Or ist us sebenarnya ? Hmmm is being optimistic helps ? Is the obstacles make us one or ist because we choose te be one ? Hmmm ist because it looks easy that we concur or because we find it one ? Ist because we guarantee em all that it ends so easely jua , no ? And is everything tend te be good that makes us carving a smile in the face orr we did and its all went eff well ? So which is which ?? Sandwich. Eff. Lost. But almost there. Half-way. Fe real.

I haf enough. Of ? Shit. Said em. I concur , at times. But still in shape. The faiths still there. Inside. The heart. As the ocean. Till there. Take care. Yzyz. Not me. You. And all. Kiss. Candy. Yeah. Marahhhhh. 

Fill-ing my free time

Nah here quick one like wise lah I dont know what feeling m feelin yes teros teros get em thats no joke get the hell of it I doesnt always here te joke around te puke yer brain yesterday 10th was a day spent eff well I say half of it was fill-ed with fish get that no I mean was fill with all the pleasant things Alhamdulillah my partner in crime were there with me and yah mahn Mommi was around too thats not hell thats what yo call as pearl yes again pearl milk tea ahh daheck yo talking yo ask me ist then dahell yo re here 1-1 yes

M now enjoy-ing my work effing me eff I screw-ed up and eat shit this lately but  it will end eventually yo said that te me befo gonna kill anyone who didnt admit em with no please I let yo te mark em words no wisdom in em cus shit aint good no eyes no heart just like some of us no heart concur me and yo ll be free from ones practising te get a hot target yes

Ohhh ya ya ya thats not Baby Yaya I just remembered and au eh my ph recover already what a good one yo I love you stay with me fe eff long years more alright 

Bye

Said

Hey macam mana semua orang perkhabaran yang baik mudah mudahan sebab atu yang what we wud like te hear jua kan M doing good Alhamdulillah its just that inda tercope with my work tones of em Oh Lord make em easy fe me InsyaAllah Allah will guide me te get em done InsyaAllah waima keadaan now quite worst fe me like I failed in managing my time Ya Allah may my surroundings inda affect my plajaran that’s the problem with me no time management now things starting te get better InsyaAllah Lord lend us whats the best fe us fe Babu Nini give us strength te face em all ur test life problems all em all help us You re the Helper You re the Blower of strength Bless us thru all Your tests now I just dropped one of my works and more te go doa kan semua nya okay Amin Amin Amin 

The HMTs life now spending time lebih te Babu Nini and Ncc , Jpmc is the 2^nd home fe now which wud end soon InsyaAllah soon soon Amin Amin Amin and Babu Nini would be healthy again yeayyyy Amin Amin waima I admit I been weeping all along cus te see Babu Nini now is not her that’s not her that I used te know fe the past 17 years its okay Allah loves her the most that she has te go thru this InsyaAllah soon Allah would heal her pain no more pain no more sick yes Bu you ll be healthy again Syiqin know that we all know M the strongest cucu on earth Babu Nini is lucky te have a terrorist cucu like Syiqin yes M terrorist I have no feelings cool right so now all I have te do is stay strong not only fe others but fe myself itself kan things would be better in the future now Cuma test from the Creator either us The HMTs strong or not we are tho like if we weren’t then it shudnt be on our shoulder jua Syiqin ll keep on praying fe us punya health semua doa all the good things okay

M about te leave ni everyone be safe just remember this is life it ll end kan remember nah take things easy kalau ada problem layan saja and get over em tah they just tickling tu nada di risau kan semua orang ada inner strength sendiri but ego te practice kan m not saying you ego but kalau pun yes jangan tah ego okay can one just lay down a bit no harm tu okay till here bah apa semua be good and safe bye

Get it ?

Teros tell sendiri untok stay strong but aint easy tetapi have te jua when this is still so that we call life I been thru all the up and downs these days and banyak that I have te think of which sepatut nya pun inda pun di fikir kan pasal apa yang di think of atu nada yang nonsense almost semua merangkumi my surrounding it involves em who is part of my life and what is important te me yang berabis sekali  I cant avoid fe not te di fikir kan now it against my health rules eff with that but all I know is I aint fall sick no more m the big strong girl yo kno I kno and em kno too yes

I think thats a wrap fe my latest update take care

On the . . . . . . .

Hey . . Holiday starts today . . Hmmm. Kehappyan lari alignment sikit when tau one of orang Syiqin sayang tengah bersedih. Kalau bolih kalau ada magic sword Syiqin dapat fight against semua sadness atu kan bisai so that inda payah meliat yang di sayang bersedih. Banyak level cerita orang sad dan some dapat di help supaya bis diorang inda bersedih. Tapi in this case Syiqin have no right te say anything. Complex one. You know kalau hal orang besar lain cerita nya. Hmmmmm. Hopefully ada way te keluar dari sedih. Dan bergembira back , take everything as a test from the Creator. No worries. Just remember Allah is the best of planner. And Allah is the remover of pain. Allah jua heal all the wounds. Semua nya submit to our One and Only Creator , okay . . Remember semua orang sayang. Nada yang inda sayang. Take care. Sentiasa rasional okay. Xoxo.

Hmmmm. I started my holiday so well. Up slightly early apa . . But ya lah up and tau kan that ada yang sad. But okay. Let things be as what Allah have planned fe us. Stay strong. See. Thats life . .

Miss Babu Nini. How is she doing ah ? Hopefully okay saja . . Lawat her soon lah . . Or karang kah . . Hmmm. I was out tadi and baru sambong here blog. Hmmmmm. I just knew that  Babu Nini kena admit :( Jpmc. See. My instinct kuat berabis okay. Going te see her later at 5. Get well soon Bu.

Rasa macam marah just the sudden like marah arah semua benda. Syiqin inda suka marah =.=  Okay bye.

Back again.

Assalamualaikum. Kabare semua nya ? Apa keadaan now ? Semua okay ? Semua masih steady ? Yeahh harus tetap steady jua :) Apa jua keadaan , okay . . Masih di frasa yang bisa di pikul kalau inda masa kan semua nya di hadapi . . Kalau rasa inda ter hadapi , ingat kan bis diorang yang lebih tersusah keadaan nya . . Bila sebegini cakap nya teros teringat apa right untok say this wal hal sendirian jua lost sometimes. Its okay . . We remind each other jua ? Remember ?

Okay lah . . Hmmm. Nada keistimewaan untok di blog just a quick one lah . . Cuma untok di tau kan semua orang , Dad's mum has safely landed back last Thursday. InsyaAllah , di harap kan kesembuhan yang di luar jangkaan InsyaAllah . . Kesihatan yang baik , Amin . . ' Hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu ' that simply explain everything  . . Ya Allah . . Kesakitan yang di hadapi mudah mudahan balasan nya adalah Syurga di pertemuan Abadi nanti. Amin . . Amin . . Amin . . Ya Allah , lend kan Bu Nini strength. Habis kan tia the pain. Biar tia Babu Nini menjadi sihat. Amin Amin Amin. I once read that Miracle do happen . . And soon . . Soon. Miracle would happen :) Everything jadi only if Allah's will. InsyaAllah. Have faith. Semua menpray kan yang selalu terbaik. Yang baik baik belaka. InsyaAllah , semua yang baik di makbulkan. Amin. Amin. Amin.

Te see her semasa her now is satu pain yang dalam benar brabis. Thats not Babu Nini we used te know. Ya Allah bring back the old Babu Nini. Syiqin miss the old Babu Nini. The one yang healthy and very strong. The weak Babu Nini is not her. Please . . Biar kan tia Babu Nini live longer and be with us sehingga nanti bila bila. Biar tia Babu Nini is one of the person Syiqin sayang untok witness Syiqin graduate apa nanti. Help kan Babu Nini untok fight against her cancer , okay . . You re the remover of pain. Semuanya Amin Amin Amin.

Apa semua nya we know we are that strong te face and accept all this Allah sedang test us and InsyaAllah bolih face. Bertahan demi Babu Nini. Everyday mensend the strength thru the prayers. Mudahan Babu Nini stay strong. Amin.

Syiqin habis sudah. Malas kan type lagi dan habis te cakap. Till there. Jaga diri semua nya. Okay. Assalamualaikum.